Happy Easter!
Time is a strange thing and it's a thing i'm running out of. The clock has been ticking for a long time now, but it's only recently I started to take note of what is actually left on the timer. I go back to Leeds this weekend, jump into three hectic weeks of last minute learning as both I and my lecturers panic(hopefully resulting in shortening of my syllabus! :P However unlikely that is) as well as wrapping up the year with everyone at Leeds, some for the very last time(ever!) before diving headfirst into a weeks isolatory revision(in an ideal world) with only hayfever to accompany me(in the not so ideal world). Neither of which will go according to plan. Then there are a couple of weeks of exams and it's all over. Full stop.
Today has been a day full of worries. I'm not sure what sparked it, but I became quite irrational at 5am this morning. A combination of the early morning birdsong, the boiler cranking the radiators on, the knowledge I was the only one in the house and the possible sound of someone's voice sent a wave of memories and dreams through my mind convincing me there was someone in the house. It jolted my body and I was instantly awake. After several minutes spent straining my ears for the faintest footstep and staring out of the upstairs windows looking for the 'culprits' I had to make a complete tour of the house to make sure I was alone; and even then I wasn't completely satisfied that I hadn't just imagined something. I've heard about 'letterboxers' from crimewatch programmes on tv and I know that burgulars are a creature of oppurtunity trying doors on every street till they find one that's been left unlocked, rather than planned bluprinted action missions- but somewhere in the depths of me I still worry they'll come back. It's one of my biggest childhood fears(other than dinosaurs!) a fear of people I don't know, particularly burgulars who make their way into my sanctuary from the world, this place called home. I eventually trundled back to sleep before the early morning thunderstorms(which I worried was someone moving our bins haha!) and just missed the postman before I started the day properly.
Driving was also a little scary today. At practically every bottleneck I reached in the road I was met at same time by a vehicle from the other direction! These bottlenecks came in many forms: cars parked on the side of the road, lorries unloading, thin bridges, horses and natural bottlenecks(i.e. road to thin for more than one vehicle). It would have been perfect for several driving theory exam videos! I managed to give way to all traffic and I am still in one piece, as is the car, so I guess I did good! Still wasn't easy though! However I am basically ready to take my actual test now and as long as the examiner isn't crazy, stupid or exceptionally scary I should pass this summer :)
Other good stuff? I spoke to my lil bro this morning and he's having a fanstastic time in NZ which is rather ace, really happy for him. I'm also writing again and I'm trying to keep my flow positive, because positivity breeds positivity whilst negativity breeds negativity. I think it's a little obvious which I'd(and probably all'd) prefer! Here's a sampler:
So I'm going to take it all in my stride, I'm going to learn how to master space and time, I ask forgiveness for all the many lies and I won't stop at nothing, it's the greatest crime.
Track of the week is from a band I literally only heard of minutes ago: Deportees- Who Is Going To Meet Me
The link is spotified :P to make it easier for spotifiers. Incidentally if you aren't a spotifier go make yourself one because it's rather fantastic.
I shall leave ye be, there are earthquakes in need of arrest...
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