Where are my axis? I'm too far from the origin, my graphs are scattered and I'm lost in the Euclidean space. Everything was Dandy whilst Newton controlled my mechanics, but now hes being taken over by the complexities of Lagrange and Hamilton! Seriously, I feel a little bit out of my depth. Almost gone mad in the last week!
Everything's stressy. Module choices. Exams. Finishing off this years modules. Sorting out groupwork. Social situations. Messes cause stresses and I'm in a mess. A bit of clarity would be useful right around now. Why am I here? What should I study? Will I be alright at it and find it interesting? Will it help me in the future? Will it detriment my future? Do i have a future outside of university? What do I want to do? What do I not want to do? Can I trust myself with these decisions?
I had a lecture on depression yesterday in Evolutionary Psychology, fun times yeah? What did it teach me? That i am now a self diagosed depression (depressive and manic(bipolar)) sufferer as I could associate myself with almost all of the items noted as being prevalent in these type of people. 1/4 of people get depression at some point in their lives at least once, but really is this the most appropriate time?!! So im doing my best to stay on the manic side. Dont give up on me!
In other, rather more positive news their was an awards social last night for lsrm and it was rather fantastic. I won two awards and ate them happily :D Also the food was absolutely fantastic. I do very much recommend la Besi to anyone who reads this!!
And yeah to keep myself from screaming ive gone a bit old school. Here's
Genesis- There's a job to do . I've got a lot on you!